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There's nothing quite like
A California winter The kind of season that Is as hot and cold as me It can bring rain and fire Or sunshine for miles But regardless of all The possible surprises God never fails To paint the sky everyday What beauty to behold And photos to capture With skies of a spectrum And oceans of reflection That is why winter sunsets In California are my favorite color @sabaitide
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I want you to be happy
So don’t worry about me I should bottle up my feelings As I battle with my insanity I admit that you were special ‘Cause of when and where we met I wondered if you were the one But if you aren’t, just forget it I don’t want to hold onto you If you don’t want to be mine But I’ll still pray about you As we move on with our lives I’ve accepted the harsh reality That no one will want to date me ‘Cause if I read my own blog I’d also kinda intimidate me Lately I have been working on My relationship with God But when I listen to my heart Sometimes you come up It’s not the idea of you It's how you made me feel While I was wondering What on earth is real I’m feeling the emotion of you But eventually I’ll let you go If you still want to be friends I hope we can take this slow I need God to be my peace And the center of my life But there’s a special reason Why He brought you into mine @sabaitide I've had a few
Random thoughts Like stars that I'll Connect the dots The thought of you Comes up a lot So I'm not sure What's real or not The way I feel Is not your fault But to me you Meant a lot And now my heart is what you haunt Unless I'm also What you want This is why we Don't talk much Starcrossed to meet But maybe not Unless you can Prove me wrong And we can try To move the stars @sabaitide Sometimes I feel awkward
And no one cares how I feel No one cares if I’m awkward And that’s how I feel Sometimes I feel inadequate And no one cares how I feel No one cares if I’m inadequate And that’s how I feel Sometimes I feel insignificant And no one cares how I feel No one cares if I’m insignificant And that’s how I feel Sometimes I care how no one feels Sometimes no one feels that I care Sometimes I feel that no one cares Sometimes no one cares that I feel @sabaitide With all positive affirmations put aside
I think there’s something weird with me I should bottle my weirdness up inside And just save all this weird for therapy Maybe I shouldn’t express myself ‘Cause now you all know I’m weird Weirder than how weird I thought I was Now on the spectrum I’m way too weird I’m so sorry if you have been affected By the weirdness of my mental health This is the most weird that I’ve ever been And should probably keep this to myself @sabaitide This is a friendly reminder that I can’t read your mind
And that’s better said alive than from the other side I don’t know how many folks I’ve made laugh or cry And I don’t know who you are or how you feel inside It would’ve been a shame if I didn’t have courage to write If I remained too shy to express myself or open my mind But to be candid, I’ve had a strange feeling for quite a while ‘Cause it’s been ominously quiet on my social media profile I shouldn’t measure my worth by the amount of likes Or views or comments or followers or the online hype My notes are underwhelming and it's got me wondering What’s the point of it ‘cause the illusion’s lost meaning Am I actually censored or am I shadow banned? A first world problem, but what’s up with that? Maybe no one cares and I’m overthinking it ‘cause I’m Not like the popular girls who have too much influence If I never said anything and something bad happened to me They all would’ve had too much fun rewriting my own story So sad this girl didn’t know she was loved before she died Too bad no one actually talked to her to ever explain why I jumped right to the end where they all talk about my life But still don’t care ‘cause it’d be written off as a suicide I don’t even want to think like that but whatever happens Life is short and they’ll make it about my vaccine status But not being popular isn’t a reason to hurt yourself Although I admit, it could wreck your mental health I don’t write for attention or social media incentives Even if you are real they won’t get what the point is The status quo doesn’t have to be the status quo I can free myself when I choose to be myself So I won’t let them influence how I ought to be Because I am enough and I just want to be me @sabaitide I have accepted that I probably won’t make it to the end
A little melodramatic, but at least the sky hasn’t fallen yet Then sometimes I wonder if we could be more than friends But that is not a recurring thought I even want to have While playing out every worst case scenario in my head But deep down, I want a love that will last Who will protect me and who has my back Who will treat me right and hold my hand And will reassure me that it’s not the end Of the freaking world.. Or at least not yet But I’m just a girl and this is all in my head Mentally preparing for the end rather than The possibility of actually falling in love again @sabaitide I’m living by this prayer
That God will lead me to Where He needs me to go When He needs me there To do what He needs me to do And to meet who He needs me to So wherever, whenever, whatever And whoever comes into my life God will surely guide me Every step of the way and Someday I’ll understand why @sabaitide I wasn't looking to change
But you found me, my babe All the sweet things you say Got me changing my ways Across the sky I will sway Changing slowing in phase As you lighten my days Shining brighter in rays Yeah You made me happy It makes me sad that I can't be your source Of happiness And when all this is All said and done What is done well Is done with love @sabaitide My faith in God is stronger than
My skepticism of the system My trust in God is greater than My distrust in the media My love for God is mightier than My anxiety of the future Because apart from my faith, my trust, and my love, I would be even more lost without knowing God at all @sabaitide |
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