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I think I already knew
That you loved me That's why we're just friends But when you actually Told me you love me Now you're a maybe I didn't know might be And I wasn't prepared for This to be anything more Than what this isn't even is And maybe we could Finally be something Now that you told me That you love me Which I already knew But wasn't prepared for Because we're just friends @sabaitide
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I think I've got a lot going on
And a bright future ahead But lately it's dawned on me To make realistic life plans Not just the month-to-month Where I'm barely getting by In what's become a routine For my quiet small town life Maybe one day I can leave Or try and fall in love again You'll think I have a crush but I'm having way too much fun Too much fun being myself, like I cannot handle how much fun I am having, ah, but then I think How and why am I the last one? Why am I the only single person Left in my family? And when did This happen or sneak up on me? Even my little sister has a s/o And so do all of my old friends Who are getting ready or married While I sit here in all the fun I'm having Wondering what on earth am I doing? Why hasn't any relationship worked? And is it something wrong with me? Am I too crazy? Not cute enough? Did my ex start a rumor about me? Sometimes I'm brutally single And I'll overthink everything But I don't even want think About my nonexistent love life Why I haven't found the one? Sometimes it gets to me, but Then I'll forget and overthink Those life plans I don't have yet @sabaitide I want you to be happy
So don’t worry about me I should bottle up my feelings As I battle with my insanity I admit that you were special ‘Cause of when and where we met I wondered if you were the one But if you aren’t, just forget it I don’t want to hold onto you If you don’t want to be mine But I’ll still pray about you As we move on with our lives I’ve accepted the harsh reality That no one will want to date me ‘Cause if I read my own blog I’d also kinda intimidate me Lately I have been working on My relationship with God But when I listen to my heart Sometimes you come up It’s not the idea of you It's how you made me feel While I was wondering What on earth is real I’m feeling the emotion of you But eventually I’ll let you go If you still want to be friends I hope we can take this slow I need God to be my peace And the center of my life But there’s a special reason Why He brought you into mine @sabaitide I've had a few
Random thoughts Like stars that I'll Connect the dots The thought of you Comes up a lot So I'm not sure What's real or not The way I feel Is not your fault But to me you Meant a lot And now my heart is what you haunt Unless I'm also What you want This is why we Don't talk much Starcrossed to meet But maybe not Unless you can Prove me wrong And we can try To move the stars @sabaitide I have accepted that I probably won’t make it to the end
A little melodramatic, but at least the sky hasn’t fallen yet Then sometimes I wonder if we could be more than friends But that is not a recurring thought I even want to have While playing out every worst case scenario in my head But deep down, I want a love that will last Who will protect me and who has my back Who will treat me right and hold my hand And will reassure me that it’s not the end Of the freaking world.. Or at least not yet But I’m just a girl and this is all in my head Mentally preparing for the end rather than The possibility of actually falling in love again @sabaitide I wasn't looking to change
But you found me, my babe All the sweet things you say Got me changing my ways Across the sky I will sway Changing slowing in phase As you lighten my days Shining brighter in rays Yeah You made me happy It makes me sad that I can't be your source Of happiness And when all this is All said and done What is done well Is done with love @sabaitide Chorus
When I open up my mind I should warn ya I haven’t thought this out loud before ya So thanks for listening to me And my candid insanity When I open up my mind I should warn ya I haven’t thought this out loud before ya So thanks for listening to me And my candid insanity Verse Growing up is weird to do On my own thinking of you Not that I’m love obsessed Or need you for my happiness I’m just glad that we’re friends But you’re my biggest what if Am I really telling you this? I’m shaking ‘cause I’m so nervous Chorus When I open up my mind I should warn ya I haven’t thought this out loud before ya So thanks for listening to me And my candid insanity When I open up my mind I should warn ya I haven’t thought this out loud before ya So thanks for listening to me And my candid insanity Verse You probably weren’t expecting this Now you know about my randomness I’m sorry if you also feel this Observing my awkward moment But someday I’ll get over it And forget about you again ‘Cause I know how this ends I’ll probably be alone again Chorus When I open up my mind I should warn ya I haven’t thought this out loud before ya So thanks for listening to me And my candid insanity When I open up my mind I should warn ya I haven’t thought this out loud before ya So thanks for listening to me And my candid insanity Verse For some reason I still Hope to see you again Like it’ll answer a question Lingering in my head But I finally know why I feel this way about you It’s ‘cause you are the only Thing I wish was real @sabaitide |
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