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Still Not Ready, Thanks

12/1/2021

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I think I already knew
That you loved me
That's why we're just friends
But when you actually
Told me you love me
Now you're a maybe
I didn't know might be
And I wasn't prepared for
This to be anything more
Than what this isn't even is
And maybe we could
Finally be something
Now that you told me
That you love me
Which I already knew
But wasn't prepared for
​Because we're just friends
@sabaitide
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My NonExistent Love Life

12/1/2021

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I think I've got a lot going on
And a bright future ahead
But lately it's dawned on me
To make realistic life plans

Not just the month-to-month
Where I'm barely getting by
In what's become a routine
For my quiet small town life

Maybe one day I can leave
Or try and fall in love again
You'll think I have a crush but
I'm having way too much fun 

Too much fun being myself, like
I cannot handle how much fun
I am having, ah, but then I think
How and why am I the last one?

Why am I the only single person
Left in my family? And when did
This happen or sneak up on me?
Even my little sister has a s/o

And so do all of my old friends
Who are getting ready or married
While I sit here in all the fun I'm having
Wondering what on earth am I doing?

Why hasn't any relationship worked?
And is it something wrong with me?
Am I too crazy? Not cute enough?
Did my ex start a rumor about me?

Sometimes I'm brutally single
And I'll overthink everything
​But I don't even want think 
About my nonexistent love life

Why I haven't found the one?
Sometimes it gets to me, but
Then I'll forget and overthink
Those life plans I don't have yet
@sabaitide
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I Want You to be Happy

11/1/2021

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I want you to be happy
So don’t worry about me
I should bottle up my feelings
As I battle with my insanity

I admit that you were special
‘Cause of when and where we met
I wondered if you were the one
But if you aren’t, just forget it

I don’t want to hold onto you
If you don’t want to be mine
But I’ll still pray about you
As we move on with our lives

I’ve accepted the harsh reality
That no one will want to date me
‘Cause if I read my own blog
I’d also kinda intimidate me

Lately I have been working on
My relationship with God
But when I listen to my heart
Sometimes you come up

It’s not the idea of you
It's how you made me feel
While I was wondering
What on earth is real

I’m feeling the emotion of you
But eventually I’ll let you go
If you still want to be friends
I hope we can take this slow

I need God to be my peace
And the center of my life
But there’s a special reason
Why He brought you into mine
@sabaitide
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Starcrossed

11/1/2021

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I've had a few
Random thoughts
Like stars that I'll
Connect the dots

The thought of you
Comes up a lot
So I'm not sure
What's real or not

The way I feel
Is not your fault
But to me you
Meant a lot

And now my heart
is what you haunt
Unless I'm also
What you want

This is why we
Don't talk much
Starcrossed to meet
But maybe not

Unless you can
Prove me wrong
And we can try
To move the stars
@sabaitide
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DoomsDay

10/1/2021

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​I have accepted that I probably won’t make it to the end
A little melodramatic, but at least the sky hasn’t fallen yet
Then sometimes I wonder if we could be more than friends
But that is not a recurring thought I even want to have
While playing out every worst case scenario in my head

But deep down, I want a love that will last
Who will protect me and who has my back
Who will treat me right and hold my hand
And will reassure me that it’s not the end
Of the freaking world.. Or at least not yet

But I’m just a girl and this is all in my head
Mentally preparing for the end rather than
The possibility of actually falling in love again
@sabaitide
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With Love

10/1/2021

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​I wasn't looking to change
But you found me, my babe
All the sweet things you say
Got me changing my ways

Across the sky I will sway
Changing slowing in phase
As you lighten my days
Shining brighter in rays

Yeah

You made me happy
It makes me sad that
I can't be your source
Of happiness

And when all this is
All said and done
What is done well
Is done with love
@sabaitide
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Candid Insanity

8/1/2021

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Chorus
When I open up my mind I should warn ya
I haven’t thought this out loud before ya
So thanks for listening to me
And my candid insanity

When I open up my mind I should warn ya
I haven’t thought this out loud before ya
So thanks for listening to me
And my candid insanity 

Verse
Growing up is weird to do
On my own thinking of you
Not that I’m love obsessed
Or need you for my happiness
I’m just glad that we’re friends
But you’re my biggest what if
Am I really telling you this?
I’m shaking ‘cause I’m so nervous

Chorus
When I open up my mind I should warn ya
I haven’t thought this out loud before ya
So thanks for listening to me
And my candid insanity 

When I open up my mind I should warn ya
I haven’t thought this out loud before ya
So thanks for listening to me
And my candid insanity

Verse
You probably weren’t expecting this
Now you know about my randomness
I’m sorry if you also feel this
Observing my awkward moment
But someday I’ll get over it
And forget about you again
‘Cause I know how this ends
I’ll probably be alone again

Chorus
When I open up my mind I should warn ya
I haven’t thought this out loud before ya
So thanks for listening to me
And my candid insanity 

When I open up my mind I should warn ya
I haven’t thought this out loud before ya
So thanks for listening to me
And my candid insanity

Verse
For some reason I still 
Hope to see you again
Like it’ll answer a question
Lingering in my head
But I finally know why
I feel this way about you
It’s ‘cause you are the only
Thing I wish was real
@sabaitide
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