I think I already knew
That you loved me
That's why we're just friends
But when you actually
Told me you love me
Now you're a maybe
I didn't know might be
And I wasn't prepared for
This to be anything more
Than what this isn't even is
And maybe we could
Finally be something
Now that you told me
That you love me
Which I already knew
But wasn't prepared for
Because we're just friends
I think I've got a lot going on
And a bright future ahead
But lately it's dawned on me
To make realistic life plans
Not just the month-to-month
Where I'm barely getting by
In what's become a routine
For my quiet small town life
Maybe one day I can leave
Or try and fall in love again
You'll think I have a crush but
I'm having way too much fun
Too much fun being myself, like
I cannot handle how much fun
I am having, ah, but then I think
How and why am I the last one?
Why am I the only single person
Left in my family? And when did
This happen or sneak up on me?
Even my little sister has a s/o
And so do all of my old friends
Who are getting ready or married
While I sit here in all the fun I'm having
Wondering what on earth am I doing?
Why hasn't any relationship worked?
And is it something wrong with me?
Am I too crazy? Not cute enough?
Did my ex start a rumor about me?
Sometimes I'm brutally single
And I'll overthink everything
But I don't even want think
About my nonexistent love life
Why I haven't found the one?
Sometimes it gets to me, but
Then I'll forget and overthink
Those life plans I don't have yet
When time will tell or come to pass
When life goes on what will last?
When trials test my faith I’ll ask
Does God have something better planned?
When hard times come it’s He who’ll bless
He makes creation from my mess
He loves me when I’m not my best
‘Cause God’s planned something more than this
It's that time of year again
To decorate our homes
To cook our family meals
To get our shopping done
And to give and receive gifts
But when you unwrap your box
Will you hope for toys or treats?
Or the trendiest material things
That you saw advertised on IG
On your personalized newsfeed?
We're more connected than ever
Why not use it for a good cause?
Because right now, somewhere
Around the world there is a family
In need of some disaster relief
Due to conflicts, climate change, and
Circumstances beyond our control
And one day I hope that family will
Receive a gift like yours, and in it,
Will be shelter
There's nothing quite like
A California winter
The kind of season that
Is as hot and cold as me
It can bring rain and fire
Or sunshine for miles
But regardless of all
The possible surprises
God never fails
To paint the sky everyday
What beauty to behold
And photos to capture
With skies of a spectrum
And oceans of reflection
That is why winter sunsets
In California are my favorite color